Driving in to the barbershop yesterday, I said to my husband “What do you think would happen if I just let go? Of the striving and the goals and trying to be my best at everything?” Ever practical and used to my introverted musings, he said that it really depends on what letting go means, what would I really be letting go of?
I think it’s a really important question. What if I decided to just be enough, to give up my goals and planning, my striving. Play, have fun, be spontaneous and present. What if, instead of trying to please people, I decided to just please me?
The idea terrifies me, frankly. If I don’t have goals, or plans, I worry life will descend into chaos, that I wont get things done. That things will come apart at the seams. Maybe my extraordinaory run of good luck won’t continue
But a part of me, a small part feels that this mightn’t be the healthiest thinking. That maybe, for just a month, I could try it just to see. The tantalizing freedom of being enough, being spontaneous
But I’ve been a planner and goal setter for longer than I can remember. I’ve written ten year plans, annual goals, monthly goals, lists of 100 things I want to get done this year. I run my life to schedule and structure.
Maybe its time for an adventure. Time to live in the Now for a while? I don’t know. I don’t have the answers. But I’m up for a journey!
What are your thoughts, my sweets? Do you over strive, or are you in the moment? How have you found your sweet spot? Share with me.
Still on this journey yourself?
Here’s some relevant reads I’ve come across
Eckhart Tolle The Power of Now