Do you ever get that feeling? Its sitting, dormant in the pit of your stomach until -BAM- you read an article. Might be about another woman’s success, her wonderful life, a story of transformation. The feeling grows until its a deafening roar- you want what she’s having. Oh, not exactly, mind you, but that feeling that your life is intentional, in sync with your values and desires. Where life is sparkling and fulfilling, where the path to success is laid out in front of you.
Oh, it happens to me more times than I care to admit. Every Spring I get a strange restlessness inside of me. A feeling that I should be doing more, that I’ve outgrown the current bounds of my life. I amass self help books by the pile, pour over magazines, write, journal, plan. Sometimes I throw things out, things that no longer serve me- be they activities, people, items even ways of eating.
I redesign my life, ponder my goals, daydream.
And then I emerge- ready to take on life afresh.
Sometimes I ignore the feeling. (Do so at your own peril). That’s when Life decides it knows how to transform you better than you do (Sure, it’s right, but its not always gentle). These times have been dramatic, irreversible but ultimately rewarding for me. Life’s course corrections are always worth it. Well, eventually.
Which brings me to now. Spring is in the air, restlessness is in my soul. I really don’t have time for this. 1 small business, 2 blogs, children, husband, uni. I don’t have the time or space to redesign things. But that feeling in my stomach tells me I don’t have a choice. So for now, I’m going to start subtracting things. Clearing space, weeding through my time, my social media lists, cleaning up my diet. Fertilising and preparing the soil of my life for new flowers to bloom.
Time to shed my Winter cocoon. Be free, little butterfly